“Life isn't meant to be easy, it’s meant to be LIVED..sometimes happy, other times rough. But with every up and down you learn lessons that make you strong.”
Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. A world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn't exactly match up with all your plans.
But that’s the thing.
Love isn’t a plan. It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it. Love happens; and it is so incredibly messy. People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. They can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. It’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. We can’t breathe the same way or function quite right without it.
Love isn’t her calming you down when you yell. It’s her yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn’t him bringing you roses everyday or pretty things that make your relationship appear more presentable. It’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It’s not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. We are human beings. We don’t handle one another, and we can’t be handled. We are mutable creatures that need something different everyday. Need something more or less to keep us going, to keep us believing that it’s not all for nothing. So no, it’s not him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be all right. It’s him standing there, admitting he’s just as scared as you are.
You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another persons hands and said, " here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it." That’s the thing about love.
It makes us crazy. It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn’t cross. Because love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It’s about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it’s a hell of a lot better, than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling ‘happy’ and feeling whole.
Sometimes you meet certain people that can touch your soul in certain ways most people can’t. (And more often than always, we confuse respect with love for them) But you have to let them go because you have to realize that it just isn't the best time in your life for them to come.
You will have to let go.
And in this process, that pain you feel: that’s life. The confusion and fear: that’s there to remind you that somewhere out there is something (or someone ;) ) better and that is worth fighting for.
I know life can be so hard. It can beat you down, it can spit in your face, it can do just about anything, and yet you can’t do a thing to prevent it. The things about life that I’ve learned is that you’re going to get hurt. You’re going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. You’re going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, some kind of loss. But I guarantee that one day you will smile again. You will wake up in the morning, and not have to fight the urge to cry anymore. Yes, it can take a while.. weeks, months, maybe even years. But you will get there, I promise you that.
You will have those moments where you heal. Those moments will be the best.
You'd feel like you're smiling for the first time again. You'd feel like you’re alive again. Life will just kind of restart.
There’s a point in your life when you know who stays forever and who’s just around for a while. People change, but so do you. Sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. Bad things happen to everyone, you’re not in it alone. People lie and some people just don’t care how you feel. Your heart beats no matter how much pain you’re in. Everything will be okay eventually. There are always people in your life that just make your day no matter the miles.
If someone acts like they don’t care about you it’s because they don’t care about you. Don’t waste your time making excuses for them. Just move on.
Don’t worry; you are not alone in this world
My heart like yours was broken too
I remember it wasn’t that long ago
When the man I loved broke it on two
At first I felt lie I would die
And I thought I will not be able to move on
But after some time had passed me by
I realized the pain somehow was gone
Now the wounds he created are already healing
But back then, juts like you, I thought they will never mend
Right now it may be hard for you to believe me
But you’ll find out it’s true in the end
For now you will find it impossible to forget
But after some time your heart will learn to let go
You might think you will never get over him
But you will someday, I know...
